anyway...shes a loser and writes in "livejournal." I joined so I could see what shes saying to everyone(post's are blocked from nonmembers)...and only have one friend on it....her. so today she wrote:
so I saidI don't really know how to open this up other than saying my usual 'here's my stupid brain trying to form sense out of something, blah blah you don't have to read it'. However, I do ask of you, very politely, if you are going to comment, and I know that you guys are MY FRIENDS so it would see fit to do only the following: but don't make a buttsex comment, or anything related to, please please please. There are times when someone is being serious in passing thought and it is okay to do that, but there are also times when someone is being serious, is upset, and it is not okay to do that. This is one of those times.
If you haven't noticed, I've not exactly been the most comforting person lately. I find myself in a constant state of irritation lately. The only person that has probably noticed this is Jasper, and that's only because he's the only person who's emotions reflect on my own. No one else really cares - I mean no offense, but when was the last time any of you have honestly wanted to have a serious conversation with me? When have you asked how I was really doing? What about all of your other friends? None of us are as close as we say we are. I don't think this is anyone's fault, hell, I could initiate the conversation, but I don't. It's much easier to smile and nod, look at me, PENIS HAVE SEX WITH ME MASTURBATION! HA HAHA AREN'T WE AMAZING PEOPLE.
Ugh. ****. I'm sitting here so ****ed and I don't know why. I can't write this anymore. Whatever..
Look how much I accomplished!!!!
then her boyfriend said...Well, Sam, in all seriousness, I knew you were upset. You dont need to know a person for 3 years to understand their sorrow... I guess I'm that ******* who you were refering too in the quote "PENIS HAVE SEX WITH ME MASTURBATION! HA HAHA AREN'T WE AMAZING PEOPLE." And how can you say jaspers the only one that noticed/cared? I ****in drove to see you every day for the last 2 weeks to help you out. Truth be told, your not a very 'open' person when it comes to your emotions. My commiseration towards you is tremendous, as much as you cant stand me right now. Come on, you told me "You were the only one that was there to listen to me whine last week." and now your trying to say Dan's the only one that cares? *end seriousness* HAHAHAHHAHAHAAAHAHHAHAHAA ****IN YEAH RIGHT *returns to a serious state* most of the reason you were upset last week was because of an altercation between you and Dan. I'm sorry if you look back and realised that you wasted time and whatever else on me. You told me things recently that honestly, scared the living **** out of me. I wish I could help, there is nothing I want more then to help you. You are such an amazing friend and I stopped asking for more, I realised you've been happy for the last 13+ months and 'who the **** do I think I am trying to end that.' Yes. I am an *******. I am a dick. I say the stupidest things. But how dare you say I dont care about you. Sam. Honest to god(not that either of us beleive in him) your all I care about. There isnt another person in the back of my head that I can remotely compare to you. So go ahead...bash my post for being too clicheyed and over-explained. But I know, and I care.
she then saidmaybe we're all closer than we think...
hey. everyone got underestimated here. its human kind's second nature to sense the atmosphere and mood of their surroundings and those around them. im sure theres not a single person that i know who knows smai at all that d(id)(oes)nt realize that there (is)(was) something amiss, so stop with this bragging ****. everybody cares, it's not a competition. welcome to stark reality. i thank you more than youll ever know rob, you were there for smai when noone else could be, and yet ive never wanted to stomp someone's throat more than i am inclined towards yours.
so of coarse. like the soap opera's go....drove to her house and we got into a huge huge fight... then Dan left his house and was going to be there in...5 minutes. so I didnt want to fight that little ****, I'd kick his ***. wasnt worth it... then she called and was like "im sorry, i didnt mean anything i said...you mean so much more to me then dan does..." and I said something along the lines of "**** you, I have nothing to say to you"In response to Dan: No response needed. I'm just afraid of your response sometimes to things. You know our looping conversations and blah blah blah, but yeah. I know there's a lott gone on that you aren't really clear on.. we'll talk over tea sometime. Hahaha. Keep reading..
In response to Rob: Again, okay, what the ****. You don't realize the position that you are putting people in right now. Yes, you did help me when no one else was there. But so has EVERY OTHER PERSON that's posted, even Jake in a weird way, and I'm not even that great friends with him. That's not to say anything against you, or that your help wasn't wanted or needed, but you can't compare one friendship to another. The entire meaning of FRIENDSHIP would be gone. I didn't say that Jasper was the only one that 'cared', I said that his emotions were the only ones that reflected on my own. You came into Jasper/my relationship at a rough patch, because not all relationships stay happy lovey joy all the time, they can't all be perfect, it's not possible. Guess what, you don't know him, I don't tell you stories about him, you've never seen how we are together. You always try to make him look bad to make yourself look better. So OF COURSE I'm going to defend him. He's my home, he's all I know.